i suddenly felt lyk crying...
=X
bud the tears got stuck...
wads WRONG wif mie...
=((

rainy dae 2dae....
i like rainy daesX)
hahas duno y....
i tell u...
i tink the rain doesnt lyk mie...
LOL...
was walking 2 sch 2dae...it suddenly rained damn heavy!
ten i started running...
ten the rain was smaller...
i slowed down and it started heavy AGEN...
n wen i run run reaching GO tere the shelter...
the rain was not that heavy...
haiiii....
el&cl paper one...
was so-so onli...
tink im able to pass?
after tat wen tm eat yoshiyona wif shirley...
met many ppl tere hahas...
walk walk go home...
sianzzz...
2dae got baq reasult slips...
im surprised mi l1r5 was stiu manageable...
i din work hard tis term=X
haiii o wells...

a few daes ago...
i rmb being high....
being so positive...
bud now...
so soon after ive convinced miself to be positive...
im disappointed agen...
i duno y...
i guess im disappointed....
cozidinworkhard
i guess im disappointed...
coz imalousyleaderandimadegbgamesdaeawolemess
i noe sum other tings are botherin mie...
bud somhow i duno wad are they...
or mayb i juz dun wanna face tem
juz dun wanna admit to miself
juz duno how to open miself to u all...
i duno im confused
im at a lost now...

[running away frm reality....]

yayyay im here!!!
i sound high!!!
hahaas...
act ive not recovered frm stuffs that haf happened...
bud!!...
ive xiang tong ler...
ill be more positive!!!!!
although it is much easier said then done...
bud i GOGO JIAYOUX!!!
hahas...
although i noe ill get disappointed and all that agen....
bud i hope to remain positive!!!
hahas...
u noe y???
coz im listening to Sclub7 its alright...
meaningful lyrics=DD
too all hu r not feeling too good esp shifu...
can go listen and cheer up and gogo jiayou!!!hahas
ehh...part of the lyrics....
itsalright-Sclub7
.......
wen ure feeling low
and ure on ur own
got nowhere to go
u gotta pull urself tgt
ITS ALRIGHT
anithin u wanna
ITS ALRIGHT
leaving all ur troubles far behind
ITS ALRIGHT
dun let anibodi tell u how to live ur life

aiya aiya...dun rmb ler...
nxt time ten i write the full one...
wheee....

[believe in urself no matter wad....]

haf not been updating much...
teres nothin much to update....
more tests in school....
study study....
results drop more...
more disappointing stuffs...
i tink i realli haf no life sianzzzz
kkz...
so fri was gb games dae...
and so qiao3 guides also playing games...
stjohns&ncc having combined games dae...
wahh...
anw games kinda screwed up
all mi fault lahs
i neva plan properly
not organised
i noe...
mi fault
sorrie
ill improve
sorrie esp to tose in recreation...
hope i din piss ani1 off
sorrie
i choinged 4 tution after vesper...
and i left mi tution book at worship hall outside=X
o wells...
yay yest promoted ler...
im a sergeant now=D
the ceremony was kinda boring...
hahas...
bud survived thru it without fallin asleepX)
2dae
slack
eat
tryin to study emaths now
currently nth goin in
reali no motivation to study lahs...
and that heymaths
revision test 5 i din do within the due date..so i got zero 4 the whole ting...
ten i nid to do retest wahlao...

duntreatmielykthat
iHATEitwenppltreatmielykthat
shilengshire
wenugotnofrensucumfindmie
goturownfrenswichutinkrbetter
tenuleavemieallalone
duntakemie4granted
iadmitimlykshifu
inidlotsofcareloveattention
imtiskindofpersonwheterulikeitornot
immavehsensitiveperson
igoardnoticingeverydetailofevery1
tryintomakesureevery1ishappey
tryingtocheerpplup
budsumhowimtired
imtiredcanitbetheoterwayround?
wherepplareconcernedandcheeringmieup
nodedicationhasbeenmade4mie
imnotimplyiongthatimuzhafdedicationbud
itsjuz...duno...
yimwritingtishereistohopethatuallwouldunderstandmiebetter
saeinuwouldbetere4miesaeinucaredoesntmeananitinifudunshowitout
imsorrieifimdemandingtoomuch
budiseeutagginatotherpplblogbudjuznotmine
imnovehclosetoubudweninidedsum1uwouldreadilybtere
budnotnownotanimore
imgladistiuhafSUMpploutterehusincerlycare4mie

hmmzz somehow im addicted to listening to Sclub7 songs...u can sae i veh lao tu coz they are lyk so out now..hahas..bud i lyk mahx...LOL...

[i never had a dream come true
until i met u....]

zZzZzZ....
sleepy....wanna slp...
sch so sianz...
dun lyk sec3 life lahs...
sec3 life=no life
sec2 life=great life!
so let mie turn baq time...
haiii...
not onli coz i miss twokay...
bud coz of the stress too...
haii...
i failed mi chem test...20/45
hahas...
o wells...
mi results have been droppin ever since sch reopened...
die ler...howhow=X
mi parents sae i wun worry about mi studies...
i wun cry over tem or even wun feel gan dong-ed...
u juz dun noe the other side ofmie...
the tears i haf shed secretly...
im disappointed..
that u all out tere dun understand mie...
wen im feeling down no1 tags or cares...
wile i go other ppl's blog...
1 post of feeling down and tere are lyk a million tags...
of encouragement...
of care...
im disappointed...
y din u all notice wen im feeling down
y din u all notice the other mie
mayb u all would sae i din open miself up...
bud if u were in mi shoes...
it would be hard...
lyk ebri1 has close their doors in ur face...
having their own company...
in their own cliques...
bud be4 u sae i din open miself enuff...
have u ever TRIED to understand mie...
wen i failed chem...
i looked lyk sui bian sui bian...
bud i act m veh depressed...
wanna tell sum1..
somehow...
i couldnt find ani1 that i can talk to at ease...
that u realli make mie feel loved...
that u reali cared...
mayb u realli care...
im sorrie i cant sense it...
mayb i haf too high expectations...
yea...
i should lower tem...
i duno...
im confused miself too...
bud i dun tink u all will even bother to find out wads happening in mi life...
even if u do...
its alreadi too late...
im hurt...
its realli too late....

[=(....]

lalala...
happy belated national dae!!
spore is 41 years old...so young whee..hahas...
nth much to post...
so sianzzzz...
i currently have NO LIFE...
i juz wake up go sch cum home study slack eat sleep
somehow...
ive no motivation to study...
no more twokay to look 4ward to in sch...
no more usual gang to crap wif...
parents are stiu naggin lyk crazie...
im disappointed wif miself tooo...
y im so slack...
y im lidat...
bleahx...
suddenly a though cums to mi mind
lol
y muz i be so noble...
to offer to change seats 1st...
ten now i so lonely in frnt?
bud anw i tink its a good change?
i duno...i wunder if i staed n din wanna change place
which of u would offer to go in frnt?
ive been getting pissed by ppl nowadaes
n i dun noe YY...
i juz feel pissed...
and i tried to show mi piss-ness
bud u all dun seem to notice...
not even mi moodiness at times...
u all juz overlook tose small tings...
u juz tink 'wunderful' shiyeng wun get pissed and wun get sad...
shell alwaes be happy...
and ten wad?
take mie 4 granted?
i noe wad its lyk feelin leftout...
i noe wad its lyk feelin sad bud not noeing hu to tell and wad to do...
i observe ppl ard mie carefully...
makin sure ebri1 will be happy if not ill try to cheer tem up...
u may tink i acting veh noble...
bud im tryin to do that the best i can...
bud u all seem to not notice mi feelings...
or mayb i din show tem enuff??
owells...
wdv...
hao ren mei hao bao...
im a veh SENSITIVE person...
yes i admit..
every move every action every word u do...
mayb to mie to sum1 else and not mie etcetc...
ill notice...
ill reali notice...
ppl sae treat other how u wan tem to treat u...
well no comments about tis sentence...
mayb i shouldnt care so much about tese small tings to make mi life easier...
owells mayb...
bud tis is MIE...
lyk it or not...its MIE
im juz tired mentally and physically...whoosh...
haha=D
yay ive said wad i wanted phew..hahas...

dad,mom noe u wun be able to c tis bud ill try to work as hard as i can...
i promise ill try...=D...juz dun push mie too hard..=Dgogo jiayoux!!!wheee=D
oooo...n ill try to be a better leader of ministry of reacreation yup yay hahas=D

we were juz inches away frm each oter as we pass 2dae...
bud i din haf the courage to look at u in the eye...

[love takes two....]

arhhx im hooked onto internet hahas...
o no im going to the dark side of cyberspace hahas..
no lahs...juz wanna watch high school musical...
yay watching 2nd time hahas...
ITS NICE..hahas...
ppl pls help mie not to get too hooked k..hahas..=D
tata off to watch...=D

lalala...im here to update are u excited??hahas...
kkz..
i duno wad to sae lol....
o yea...
MI LU BING WON SUPERBAND!!!
sam is juz toooooooooooooooo cute ler OMG!!!
and i tink alfred frm SOUL is cute toooo!!hahas
renfred brother hahas...
yep so soul and milubing got into the final two...
was veh happy wif tis result ler
coz i dun reali lyk lucify hehe =X...
bud i tink j3 sing the jazz xiao wei VEH NICE!!!!hahas...
i melted wen i heard tem sing it can...hahas...
kkz...
yest...
mon....
bio CT....
was okayy lah...
bud i din learn tissue fluid...
duno wad shit tey talkin about...
o wdv nvm...
o did i mention we changed sitting arrangement in class??hahas..
now im sitting wif yeow jiang and clifford...
yup wole class scattered...
bud i tink stiu okay lahs hahas...
ten duno why...3k 2dae go crazzie ler lorx....
esp during amaths...
we were rebeling poh can?
is lyk we were talkin baq to him...
ten he ask ppl to go board write the identities ten we were all shoutin the answers...
lol once wang miao coughed and it sounded lyk 'square' ahhaha...
ten proving identities...
we ask poh do ques 10 act we do before ler ahahas...
ten he ask left hand side start?...
ten e wole class was lyk 'nooo...right hand side,right hand side...right!!'
hahas...crazzie ler hahas...
1st time leh lol
yep ten 2dae 2.4 run...
i maintained constant speed bud ke xi i din sprint at the laz part...
and sec3 gals were the laz to run..
ten we reaching finishin line...ten is lyk the sec1s,2s,4s that run finish were lyk cheering...
lol so farni...
omg ye4 got shout mi name...
no wunder i can maintain till de end lollol
coz scared of him...
so i run perservere to get away frm him LOL
so bad hahas...bud i dun care?hahas..
n mr tan arhx...veh comfortin lor tell mie onli left 200metres??hahas
heard magaret jie call mi name bud too tired to look her way hahas...
and dr boon was at finish line...lol farni...
yep ten after that mie,kai,limin,socks,ys ehh lata zh joined in...
went to macD eat...
alot of ppl hahas..and counter damn slow...hahas...
yep so eat eat eat...
ten walk walk wanna go bowling bud in the end neva go...
anw i also not allowed to go...
mum nagged sae exam cuming muz study??
hahas...
ten lata ys and socks continued to wander ard ten mie,kai,limin,zh went home...
wahlao took damn long 4 us to find the bloody bus stop ahahs...
yep took 197 to bedok interchange ten go home...
ten on mrt i sae tis cute guy leh!hahas..
ok...hahas..im crappin...
saw kerensa...
and pearlyn pri sch fren...i tink she stiu recognise mie??hahas..

sianz im supposed to study...
mum nagged lyk 15mins yesterdae that exam cumin muz study??
cant go out...slacked alot...blahx blahx...
cried yest lor wdv manz...
the more mi parents sae muz study the more im not motivated...
i rather tey tell mie gogo jiayou!!
bud no tey lecture mie...
wdv...
and tey sae she noe i veh stressed all that wdv
evertime sae i do mi best can ler i do mi best can ler
bud cum out mi physics fail or wdv test fail
u all at 1st seem ok...
ten lata juz explode...
so tis is the way u are encouraging mie...
i feel SOO encouraged...
wdv...
cant go iceskating...
cant go sec3s gb bbq...
wdv...
ill juz haf to try mi best not to slack and study....
sumtimes cant stand the slacker inside mie too haii wdv...

[in good and bad times,
i juz wish u will alwaes be by mi side....]

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